Something Before The Breakdown Below

Note: I don't mind what anyone posts here on this, just don't let it be abusive.

I seem to have the song You Oughta Know by Alanis Morisette in my head when it comes to my ex fiancé. But the hurt hasn't gone away, I threw out alot of things he gave me, but I can't help but wish I could of thrown out the pieces of my heart he shattered and will never be repaired. Even if my heart isn't whole I have a brightens knowing I can love others, just not exactly the way I loved him. and I don't think those peices will ever EVER heal. But who knows...

I feel like... I'm grieving for him... in a sense, I suppose
I dunno..
Eventually I will have a whole heart again.. some day

He is the only one who has hurt me to that degree. And there are things my ex's have done that I will never forgive. He who hurt me so severely, will be the last who will harm me to that extent of agony, of pain, of torment.

I AM
NOT A
DOORMAT

I AM
A KAJIRA

LA
FUCKING
KAJIRA!

as for my ex-Master, I will never blacken you. You do not deserve it. You are a wonderful man, I just know we have different needs now. You will always be in my heart and I appreciate all you've done, you've helped me grow. Now its time for me to stand on my own two feet and follow the path thats been calling my heart for months and get a move on with things in my life.

to you, Sir: Thank you

I have Fallen from Grace
Plummeted to the Earth at Full Speed
and have now Unfurled my wings, and Taken Flight.

I have Stepped Forward
I'm moving on in my journey.
Who knows what the world will hold for me.

Always believe in yourself akira, you may be standing alone should life knock you down. You can do this gracefully and walk away with a lighter heart, a brighter smile and a higher spring in your step. It's time to put your foot on the path...
Go...

Signed respectfully, Lovingly and Proudly.
Akira